"Why not give it a try" - I thought as I signed up for drama club
Growing up, I was really shy about everything. Was it asking someone for help or speaking in front of the whole class, it was a mission impossible for me. I wanted to try a few times, but I got so nervous that I just gave up and didn' t think about it much. I spent two months watching movies all kind and then I realized, it was enough " Why not give it a try". So that's how I got from giving up to finnaly have enough courage to even think about it.
The first day I was awake at six in the morning because I was nervous. I just kept thinking about how bad I was at it and how I would humiliate myself in front of twenty kids my age. Those thoughts made me second guess myself but I stood firm and gave it a try. When I came to drama club that was a big step for me. All those kids were so confident that I had no doubt about failing and ruining myself for good. But then I saw a girl who was the same as me. She had her head down, stood in the back of the place, so I gained just a tiny bit of confidence and I went over to talk to her. Her name was Cassy, short for Cassandra. She told me that she was also super shy and joined drama club just so her class would stop teasing her and stop making fun of her. I felt really bad for her and we kept talking until the drama club started. First was a girl named Aries and she was so confident and so full of herself that it even made the other kids second guess themselves. Aries was so noisy that few of the other kids had to put hands over their ears instinctively. After Aries spent almost half an hour talking, we had only fifteen minutes left and the teacher said that we can only hear two more students. In my mind I was begging not to be me and for a half a second it worked. Aries was followed by a kid named Oliver. From my perspective he was a nice polite kid. He started reading his poem out loud and his voice was so cold and harsh like he didn't have emotions. We all listened in silence while his voice filled the room. When he finished, we all gave him a small clap, and then the teacher called the second name. No more,no less - it was my name that got called out. I froze. All that confidence I had before just vanished in a split second. I had to think fast and come up with an excuse. Too late. All of the kids were looking right at me and I had no choice but to go in front of the stage. And I went. I wrote a small story about me and snow and started reading it. I was scared in that moment, and when my voice began echoing through the room. The moment had me shaking but I still kept reading. I was almost finished and the relief was flooding inside me. I did it. I read my story out loud. I was really proud of myself and what came next had me shocked. All twenty kids including the teacher stood up and gave a long clap. The kind of clap you hear in theatre. When it stooped, teacher looked me right in the eyes and told me I had a great control over my voice. I was stunned by her words. Later that day I came home and told my parents everything. They were proud, but I was overwealmed by her words, by that moment.
The moment I spoke in public didn't gain me a lot of confidence that now I could speak in front of the class or anything like that what most people think when you step up from your fear. The moment didn't have me bragging that now I was better than those who are still shy. The day that changed everything was the moment I was on the stage and finished my story. That is a moment that gave me proof I can do it and I'm good at it or even amaizing . That day gave me a different perspective. Before I got courage to sign up for drama club, I was giving up because I was thinking negatively about myself. Now that I know I can do it I think for everything I still can't do that anything you put your mind to, can be done just if you belive in yourself and if you have bravery to do it.